Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Prayer Warrior

"I am a soldier, a prayer warrior. Here I stand.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior, of the army of my God. The Lord Jesus Christ is my Commanding Officer. The Holy Bible is my code of conduct. Faith, Prayer, & the Word are my weapons of warfare. I have been taught by the Holy Spirit, trained by experience, tried by adversity, and tested by fire. I am a volunteer in this army, & I am enlisted for eternity. I will either retired at the Rapture or die in this army; but I will not get out, sell out, or be talked out. I am faithful, capable, & dependable. If my God needs me, I am there.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior. Here I stand.

I am not a baby. I do not need to be pampered, petted, primped up, pumped up, picked up, or pepped up.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior. Here I stand.

No one has to call me, write me, visit me, entice me, or lure me.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior. Here I stand.

I am not a wimp. I am in place saluting my King, obeying His orders, praising His name, & building His kingdom.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior. Here I stand.

No one has to send me flowers, gifts , food, cards, candy, or give me handouts. I do not need to be cuddled, cared for, or catered to. I am committed. I cannot have my feelings hurt bad enough to turn me around. I cannot be discouraged enough to turn me aside. I cannot lose enough to make me quit. When Jesus called me into this army, I had nothing. If I end up with nothing, I will still come out even. I will win. My God will supply all my needs. I am more than a conqueror. I will always triumph. I can do all things thru Christ.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior. Here I stand.

Even death cannot destroy me. For when my Commander calls me from this battle field, He will promote me to a captain & bring me back to rule this world with Him. I am a soldier, a prayer warrior, in the army of God, & I am marching; claiming victory. I will not give up. I will not turn around.

I am a soldier, a prayer warrior, and marching heaven-bound. Here I stand!"

This poem was read tonight in church. I do not know who wrote it, but God knew I needed to hear it. Today my cousin found out she has Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Doctors are not 100% sure but they are about 98% sure that is what she has. She is soon to be 13 years old.

My cousin needs prayers! After the doctors run a few more tests they will more than likely begin chemotherapy. Now, more than I have been in a while, I need to be a strong prayer warrior. The God who healed hundreds of years ago is still in the healing business today. He may choose not to heal her; that may not be His will, but I will pray for her and her family just as hard and hope she will either be healed or the doctors will get her into remission. I ask that you who read my blogs, will also pray. You may not always remember her in every prayer you pray, but any prayers will help.
God said any prayers you pray in His name He will answer. Please lift her and her family up in your prayers during these next couple weeks. I ask you join with me in being the prayer warriors God made us to be.


Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Life Choices

The choices we make in life determine what kind of person we are or will become. What if we do not know for sure what the right choices are? What if you are so sure about something but everything else is going against what you think? What if you know the decision you have to make but are not sure of how to go about it?
I seem to have so many questions with no answers! There has been so much going on these last couple of days and I feel as though I am almost drowning! What are the right decisions? What is the best decisions for my life? I want to do the right things and make the right choices. I do not want to regret any decisions I make. I realize there are inevitably going to be choices I make in my lifetime that I will regret; that's just life, but I want to be allowed to make those decisions and learn from them. Yes, I want guidance and councel but I do not want to be told what I can and cannot do with my future. I do not want to be given ultimatums and I do not want to 'make deals' about my future. I want to be treated like a respectable adult and have others realize I am not a child who can be told what they can or cannot do.
When does that time come when one is no longer seen as a child but rather as an adult? I know as a young person I must prove myself to those around me to show that I really am an adult but what more must I do? Am I missing something?
Though many of you have no idea what I am talking about in reference to my decision making perhaps you can answer some of these questions and help clear my befuddled mind. All of those who are old enough have asked many of these very same questions I am sure. I now just need some guidance. I need someone without clue about what decisions I am talking about and just give me their opinion on some of my questions.
I know I just have to take everything one day at a time; not borrow any worries from tomorrow but deal with what is on my plate now. It feels like everything is coming down and this wave is hovering over my shoulder ready to crash. Why is it that once you start just getting comfortable and you think everything is just how it should be God allows something to happen and it is almost as if you have started back at square one?
My motto for life is as follows, "Treasure yesterday, dream of tomorrow, but live today". Maybe that is all I really should be doing; just living each day. That is what I am trying to do anyway. It just seems as if I have too many questions with not enough answers.

Until next time,

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

A New Chapter of Life and the Flowers

Well, it has been a few weeks since I have last posted a blog but here I am again to write a new one.
I am officially graduated now and beginning a new chapter of my life. The novel of my life is being written and this may be one of the longest chapters which are to be read. I took my last final this morning in Psychology and will have a few weeks break before I begin taking summer classes in June. Getting ready for graduation and everything that goes along with it over the last couple weeks has caused me to kind of reminisce over my years and years of schooling.
As many of you know I was homeschooled from the very beginning (except for a week of Italian pre-school) I remember wondering sometimes what it would be like if I went to a real school with a real classroom and classmates. Looking back on it now, I am glad I didn't. Taking classes at Rose State College has made me realize alot of what my parents were trying to protect me from by keeping me home. Too much drama for me!
The saying goes "Time is like an hour glass. The sand seems to run out way too fast." This saying is so true. I can remember starting first grade and thinking to myself, "I can't believe I am gonna have to do 13 years of school before I can be a grown-up!" Now I look back and think, "Gee, what happened to the time? Wasn't it just yesterday I was mad about having to learn my times tables?" Now I am graduated and looking ahead, wishing life would stop giving me a few smacks.
I am not sure what this new chapter of life will hold for me. I don't know what is going to happen and to be quite honest, I don't really have a set plan. I know I am going to go to school and get a degree. I am going to be someone in the medical field, but beyond that I really have no idea. Someone the other day gave me some really good advice. He said, "Once you start running in life these next few years, with your head down trying to reach that goal...just remember to look up and smell the flowers as you pass by." What he said made me think.
For my graduation alot of my family came to support me. They were here for about 5 days and I was hardly home during the time they were here. I always had somewhere else I had to be. Later in the week when I was told, "...remember to look up and smell the flowers..." I realized I was already starting my new chapter on a bit of a rough start. Although, I was stopping to smell the flowers, I was not taking the time to appreciate them.
I think this is going to be something I will struggle with-stopping and smelling the flowers-. I am the type of person that once I have a goal in mind set, I won't stop what I am doing until I have reached that goal.
My hope now is not only to be successful in this new chapter of life but also to take the time and remember to stop and smell the flowers God has placed for me along the path He has chosen for me.

Until next time,