Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Ever Faithful

It is truly amazing how faithful God is to us each and every day! When we mess up in life and begin backsliding He never leaves. Yes, we get farther and farther away from Him because of our sin, but He has never left. He just waits for us to ask forgiveness and come running back to him. A good example I heard the other day was of the prodigal son. The prodigal son's father never left his home searching, but was waiting and watching for his son's return. Upon his son's return the father went out to meet him, embrace him, forgive him, and have renewed fellowship with him once again. This is just how God is with us but even better. See, God is not only looking for our return and waiting to forgive and renew fellowship with us; he also goes out and searches for us to bring us back to him. He gave us the Holy Spirit!
He knows us so well! He knows we will go through times when we are not as close to him as we should be. The Holy Spirit is there to lead and guide us back to the Father when we have lost our way in sin's darkness. God is forever faithful!
I have found over the last month that no matter how uncertain everything around me feels, I do not have to even question God's love and faithfulness to me. When I think of all he has done for a sinner like me who deserves nothing, I am in awe.
Regardless of what we are going through in life God gives us his promises to always be there.

Psalm 36:5- "Thy mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens; and thy faithfulness reacheth unto the clouds".

Psalm 88:11-"Shall thy lovingkindness be declared in the grave? or thy faithfulness in destruction?"

Psalm 89:33- "Nevertheless my lovingkindness will I not utterly take from him, nor suffer my faithfulness to fail".

Isaiah 25:1- "Oh Lord, thou art my God; I will exalt thee, I will praise thy name; for thou hast done wonderful things; thy counsels of old are faithfulness and truth".

Lamentations 3:23- "They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness".

God is the God of wonder. The God of righteousness. He is a jealous God and with his righteous jealousy comes overwhelming faithfulness to his children. No matter what we are going through in life God will be there to lead, guide, and direct. He gave us a free will to choose whether we follow his guiding or not. Sometimes we listen and sometimes we disregard his leading. Even when we disregard our Heavenly Father he is ready and willing to help us get back on the path he has for each and every one us his children. He may chastise us because we did not listen to him when we should have. This too is part of his faithfulness to us!
God never gives us more than we can bear and he promises when the burden is too heavy he will help carry it.
At points in our life we will question our job, our life, our relationships, our faith; we will question just about everything. We will even question God. When those times do come and we find ourselves questioning God remember God's love and faithfulness is everlasting. He is our Rock and Fortress; a very present help in trouble. He will always be there.

Until next time,

Thursday, March 4, 2010

"February and Everything After"- Counting Crows

It has been quite a while since my last post. I try and write at least once a month but February was not a good month for me.

I will not go into details of the last month but it was a very difficult time to say the least. My emotions continually fluctuated from hurt, anger, pain, frustrastion, betrayal, heartbreak, love, protection, depression, numbness, denial, hate and many more. I was a roller coaster of emotions and still am to an extent although now I am just numb and at a point where I just don't care. This has been a very difficult time and I am still having a very hard time. God is good though through the good and the bad.He has given me a great support group of friends and family to help me along the way. He is forever faithful and though I am angry and hurt I know He still loves me and will keep me close to his side. He is the greatest Comforter and will never leave. He will never fail me even when men do.

I have signed up to become a doula and will be taking classes starting tomorrow up at OSU-OKC for three days from 8 in the morning to 6:30 in the evening. Hopefully this will be a start of a career that I will enjoy. Everything has really been falling into place in that area of my life. I am excited to get started and begin doing what I believe God has called me to do.

My classes for this semester have been rather hard. I am taking an Anatomy and a math class. I enjoy my math class and am doing well in there but my Anatomy could be much better. We have another test coming up this week and I have decided if I do not do well I will go ahead and drop the Anatomy class and stick with math.

I am at a point in my life where I am ready to be out on my own. I am hoping the Doula thing works out and maybe I can move out with a few girls if everything goes well. We'll see... keep that in your prayers!

Still am not dating anyone and haven't found any takers. I am okay with that though and am not really looking for anything. I am content where I am over all and will continue to wait on God and his timing.

Went to the Winter Jam last Saturday and could truly feel the presence of God. It was as if he wrapped his arms around me and held me close. My heart was at peace and I was able to cry out to him. I wasn't going to go to the concert at first but when my sister told me she wanted me to go I went and am very glad I did now.

My sister and I have become very close over the last month and I thank God for that. It's unfortunate the circumstances that brought us closer together but we are and I can't complain about that part.

Well, for now I am off to bed. The classes start bright and early tomorrow and I want to be ready. May all of you have a great month and I will be sure to get on near the end of the month with an update on how everything is going in life.

Until next time,