Thursday, June 11, 2020

My Little Spit Fire

Hey, Everyone! I know it's been a little bit since I wrote last but time is tight with three kiddos; it's a 24/7 kind of thing. There has been quite a bit going on in our lives the last few months with Josh being laid off and Covid-19 craziness but God has been faithful and good to us. We are walking into a new season of life as a family and we are praying for God's guidance as we figure out each new step.

The whole reason for this post tonight is actually because of my Boston James. I don't know if it's because his birthday is tomorrow or if it was just laid on my heart but let me tell you what happened tonight. I am writing this all down because I want him to be able to look back at what I have written one day and read these words. I  also want YOU to know just how special I think my Bossy Boy is. 
I believe God showed me something about my son that I want to share with you and I want him to be able to reference later in life. I feel it is so important for me to write this for him. 

Tonight I am praying over my kids while they are falling asleep. I begin first by praying for Beringer and for his inquisitive spirit to lead him to seek answers from God; to question and be curious and seek out the things of God. I then begin praying for Boston. I am praying for his fiery spirit to cause him to be on fire for God. Suddenly, this dream/vision (whatever you want to call it) comes to my mind and hits me so hard. I see my son on top of the world with a fire burning underneath him and he is yelling SO LOUD to everyone below him!
 I then revert back to memories of his birth; how he came into this world so hard and fast. Even at his birth I remember thinking, "This boy is gonna be a spit fire!". I just knew he was going to be a force to be reckoned with.
 As I am continuing to pray over him, I know I need to go find Josh and have him take a few minutes to cover our younger boy in prayer also; it's almost an urgency in my spirit to do this. Once we are both praying over Boston, the word 'fire' is just stuck in my mind and I am praying that the fire of God overtakes him. God then gives me these words, "Fire for Fire" and it just keeps repeating as I see Boston as a grown man with a fire burning so close behind him it seemed to be part of him. He was standing toe to toe with someone else who had a fire behind them too but their fire was a different color than his own. It was as if both of their fires were battling and Boston's was getting larger and larger while the other couldn't keep up. 
In my mind's eye, I then see David preparing to take on Goliath when David tells Goliath,"You come to me with all this armor but I come with the Lord of hosts".
"Fire for Fire" continues to repeat in my mind as I once again see my grown son in officer blues walking down the street preparing for a spiritual battle with a fire burning so brightly behind him it is as if that fire is what is pushing him forward and singeing everything within it's reach. The look on Boston's face is so focused and hard as he walks with a purpose towards whatever is in front of him with the fire beginning to surround him.

Just like that, it's as if I wake up. The dream/vision is over and I realize I have been crying and Josh is holding my hand. Y'all, I don't know what the future holds for my second child but I am praying protection and a Holy Fire to reign down on him. 

I think DC Talk said it best in their song God's Not Dead with these lines:

"Let heaven roar, and fire fall
Come shake the ground
With the sound of revival"

Until next time,
ActionJacksontheAngloSaxon

Saturday, January 4, 2020

Song in My Heart

It's a few days into the new year and tonight I'm not exhausted and want to write. I've been wanting to write for a while now but... babies.  Need I say more?
Benelli Rayne made her appearance mid November and she made me wait all day before making a debut. I have to be honest when I say, she has been my most difficult child and she's not even 2 months old yet. Gas, constipation and sickness; I have more grays on my head than I've ever seen before. Josh has been working in North Dakota the last few weeks and as thankful as I am that he still has a job and working as much as he is, it's terrible timing. Thankfully, I have my mom, mother-in-law and sister all helping out. Otherwise, I would be a lot worse off mentally. I think we are finally seeing an end to some of the issues at hand but I'm not holding my breath til I know for sure.
The boys are in love with their baby sister and Beringer has been my biggest little helper. They talk to her and love on her all the time (which is probably why we haven't kicked these viruses 100% yet).

I don't really know what the point of this post is but it's on my heart to share what I'm about to so maybe it's not for me at all, I don't know.
As y'all know, I sing to the boys every night and after our few regulars I will start to sing whatever comes to mind. About 2 weeks ago I just started worshiping and crying out to God in song from my own heart. I'll do that sometimes but it's few and far between in song. I'm supposed to share it now with you:
 
Help me to love like You, oh God
To love just like You
For You are love, oh God
Never changing and true

Help me to trust You
Through the highs and the lows
I turn my face toward You
When I don't know where to go

Please promise You'll catch me
With arms open wide
I can't do this alone
It's in You I hide

And when I'm down in the valley
The valley so low
Will You carry me
I am too weak on my own

When I'm up on that mountain
That mountain so high
Can I stand on your shoulders
And raise my hands to the sky

Let me praise You, God
I just want to praise You
My heart is Yours
My heart is Yours

I'll praise You in the valley
I'll praise You on the mountain top
My hands I raise to You
May I never stop praising You

You've never failed me
You'll never fail me
You haven't failed me yet

No, You can never fail
You never have and You never will
You never will fail me, God

I don't know why I was to share all that with you but God knows. He really never will fail us. He can't. Ever.  He doesn't hold things over our heads. It's not His nature. He IS love. We can rest in that.  Be at peace with whatever is going on in life and know God is bigger.

Until next time,
ActionjacksontheAngloSaxon