It's a few days into the new year and tonight I'm not exhausted and want to write. I've been wanting to write for a while now but... babies. Need I say more?
Benelli Rayne made her appearance mid November and she made me wait all day before making a debut. I have to be honest when I say, she has been my most difficult child and she's not even 2 months old yet. Gas, constipation and sickness; I have more grays on my head than I've ever seen before. Josh has been working in North Dakota the last few weeks and as thankful as I am that he still has a job and working as much as he is, it's terrible timing. Thankfully, I have my mom, mother-in-law and sister all helping out. Otherwise, I would be a lot worse off mentally. I think we are finally seeing an end to some of the issues at hand but I'm not holding my breath til I know for sure.
The boys are in love with their baby sister and Beringer has been my biggest little helper. They talk to her and love on her all the time (which is probably why we haven't kicked these viruses 100% yet).
I don't really know what the point of this post is but it's on my heart to share what I'm about to so maybe it's not for me at all, I don't know.
As y'all know, I sing to the boys every night and after our few regulars I will start to sing whatever comes to mind. About 2 weeks ago I just started worshiping and crying out to God in song from my own heart. I'll do that sometimes but it's few and far between in song. I'm supposed to share it now with you:
Help me to love like You, oh God
To love just like You
For You are love, oh God
Never changing and true
Help me to trust You
Through the highs and the lows
I turn my face toward You
When I don't know where to go
Please promise You'll catch me
With arms open wide
I can't do this alone
It's in You I hide
And when I'm down in the valley
The valley so low
Will You carry me
I am too weak on my own
When I'm up on that mountain
That mountain so high
Can I stand on your shoulders
And raise my hands to the sky
Let me praise You, God
I just want to praise You
My heart is Yours
My heart is Yours
I'll praise You in the valley
I'll praise You on the mountain top
My hands I raise to You
May I never stop praising You
You've never failed me
You'll never fail me
You haven't failed me yet
No, You can never fail
You never have and You never will
You never will fail me, God
I don't know why I was to share all that with you but God knows. He really never will fail us. He can't. Ever. He doesn't hold things over our heads. It's not His nature. He IS love. We can rest in that. Be at peace with whatever is going on in life and know God is bigger.
Until next time,
ActionjacksontheAngloSaxon
